Stillness

I find myself

Stopping this morning

Over and over

Just for a moment or two

Closing my eyes

Resting my chin 

And the heaviness of my heart

And soul

On my Hands 

Where my  fingers are interlaced

Into a shelf

In these frequently occurring moments

There is a stillness

That falls upon me

It is the fulfillment of a longing

That has been bubbling and brewing

Since horrible news of death and despair

Came to me last week

News I wanted to push away

Because I knew that 

For me too

There are moments

When it feels that the breaking point

Is closer than I want to admit

The stillness has brought with it

Peace

And I ponder if you are breaking too

I am praying for your stillness